Some days….

I would not be shocked if many of you will want me to visit a psychiatrist after reading this and I may sound disturbing, but who cares this is my space anyway and I can write whatever I want to

The scooter has an old broken helmet tied to it

A white Henkey full of blood, broken spectacles on the speedometer

A lot of people surrounding a spot

An ambulance siren

Followed by a dark silence in heart

You stand still , you stand still

Feel bad for sometime

Recall what must have happened

Talk to yourself and struggle for answers

Start walking unknowingly towards anywhere

Yes there are a couple of dogs

They are barking , barking as loud as they can

Then there is this dog and he is quiet

Sitting away from the ones who are barking

What you see if you look into his eyes?

You see he feels safe , you see his innocence

These dogs they don’t bark

They try to communicate they were trying to give me lesson

A lesson to human beings, this unheard lesson

Which we never try to learn , maybe we are too ignorant to unlearn the already learned lesson

 I could feel these barks converting into cry , when someone cries after a long time

Sometimes you cry to be happy you know this is the kind of  cry I am talking about

I know what they were trying to communicate, so should you al

Anonymous Aquarian

Some unanswered ? ? ?

Lately, I have been thinking a lot and when you brainstorm you always end up with a pile of unanswered question popping up in your mind. I also have a list of them popping up in my mind. I was a little kid when i heard someone saying “one can never find an answer to why??” , I challenged myself and started following my instincts with a hope that someday i will answer all the why's in the world.

It's been over ten years and i could not even answer one simple Question (which again starts with a) "why do i get sad?".

Why do i get sad??

when i know, nothing is constant or forever

this phase which is filled with despondency is ephemeral

Why do I get sad ???

When i know, no one is actually satisfied with anything

how could there be something that could satisfy me ?

Why do i get sad????

when i know, this is the nature of time

to never pause for anyone

Why do i get sad?????

the question still persists. Why?.

why the most basic question still remains unanswered. “Why?”

I reached somewhere real close to the answer and i realize that the answer lies somewhere in me, inside me , in my conscious or sub-conscious and i know may be i am not complete as a whole. I need to learn, unlearn and then relearn. From everything around me , from every moment that passes by , every event happening around. I need to believe that "i exist , I exist , I exist." I need to believe in my existence and believe in believing.

Anonymous Aquarian.

One never stops anticipating

One of the most vital characteristics of human nature is to “Never stop anticipating”. Whatsoever the circumstances are you never stop anticipating. At school I remember I used to ask to escape from “Home work not done Caning”; It never helped (except form a few times, Yes exactly when I submitted the homework).

Then when I grew up a little by little I meant I was in college so technically I wasn’t little. I used to expect the hottest chick in the college to ask me out. But that never happened, still did not lose hope (Look pals that is the magic of anticipating).

After graduating from college the only thing I anticipated was a good job , but yea that depends on your Karma and as far as I am concerned I landed into a mediocre job (really not so awesome but trying to cope up with it).

While writing the Blog there were a couple of things running in my mind and I figured out the different phases of anticipation in an average human life:

     0 to 5 Years: I will call it the “The Eat and Poop phase” – Put you in the 2 years old shoes all he (I am not being biased towards the gender here) would want is breast feeding and then expect someone to wipe his ass. This is the most enjoyable phase of human life because this is the only phase where he gets what he anticipates.
 5 to 15 Years : “ Escape homework canning and planning” –Did not took me much of efforts to recall this phase I could remember copying my DAD and then learning about hardships of life, human nature , The Bad guys in town. There is a bunch of kids your parents don’t want you to be with “Never see you again with them” group. This phase is not as enjoyable as the last one is all you do in this phase is create plans and live in a virtual world away from reality faar away. You never get what you want in this phase unless you are Justin Bieber or Daniel Radcliffe (Again I am not being gender biased).I forgot to mention you also anticipate to sleep with your Economics or English teachers (but I never thought of doing that kidding).

     15 to 30 Years: “MIAMI (Money is a major issue)”- Money becomes a major issue and most of us expect a lotta money in this phase . And we start to raise our demands and try to look for more and more sources out there. This is the high time when we start introspecting ourselves we ask a lot of questions to ourselves. This is the phase when you usually make your first girlfriend or boyfriend. Well if you don’t , Sorry you are a looser than.
30 to 50- “Anticipate from others”- This is one phase where you start anticipating from your family members from your friends from almost everyone you know. You have simply passed the amazing phases of your life and this would not be an awesome phase.You look back and laugh at the mistakes , You cherish your winning moment the loosing moments sadden you but when you recall what you learnt it brings a smile on your face.

     50 to I don’t know Average life expectancy in India: I don’t want to be in this phase really because all you anticipate by than is life a little more days to live. So would not write about it.

  

    Anonymous Aquarian.

Another usual year of my life.

The year is about to end 2011 , And we are about to begin with 2012. When i look back 2011 hasn't been a great year. This year was full of usualness for me. I restricted myself to a couple of things which i feel was wrong.

Hahahah 2011! you made me a 9 to 6 guy, In simple words i transformed into an uncle. I don't know if i shall consider this as an upgradation or degradation.

Got an graduation degree this year wish my DAD was here.

Well god has been kind to me, I saved myself from a disastrous accident this year. Somewhere deep inside my heart i feel this strongly that up their in heaven my DAD (as he was a very strict man) keeps scolding god and keeps reminding him to look after me. And he saved my life.

There were no great events that happened to me this year which i shall be writing about except one realization that "great things happen to you only if you work hard for them". I was a lazy bum this year , Actually i am being too harsh on me to call myself a lazy

bum but circumstances were such that I could not work hard to accomplish what i deserve.

Moving forward to new year with no new goals to accomplish but have one thing in mind to work hard. But one Unanswered question still persists ???? Which direction???.

Anonymous Aquarian.

a few useless things ...

Going through my cupboard
i found a few things lying
A few things which were of no use
but had a lot of moments and feeling
they reminded me of the time
when we used to be together
the time when you used to hear
and answer my calls
the time when you used to
catch me by ears one moment
and other moment you used gimme a warm hug
they reminded me of the resplendent time
we spent together , growing together in love
learning from each others mistakes
the useless things in my cupboard
reminded me of so many things
and yet i called them useless ..........
A few useless things which brought tears into my eyes
A few useless things which made me feel the ache of separations
Those few useless things aren't useless anymore they mean a lot now
they are my world to me
yea those few useless things are my world to me.
Those few useless things are not useless anymore
those few useless things are my world to me .....

Anonymous Aquarian.

Deprived Of . . .

Deprived of Some Usual Feelings

Some Usual Feelings which every Child deserves

Some Usual Feelings that every boy deserves

Some usual feeling that a every man deserves

Some usual feelings that every Father deserves

Some usual feelings that every Human being deserves....

I was told when i was a little kid that love is also a kind of beautiful feeling

Unfortunately never got to taste the sweetness of this "feeling "

Deprived of some usual Emotions

Some usual Emotions that make you proud

Some usual emotions that make you stand out of crowd

Some usual emotions that make you cry

Some usual emotions that make you shy

Some usual emotions that make you happy

Some usual emotions that every human being feels

I was told when i grew up that

Emotions are being felt from heart

But my heart never made me feel any ..

Deprived of that usual respect ...

That respect which every Father Deserves

The respect that a silent protector deserves

The respect that a guardian deserves

I was deprived of that Parental Respect ..

Who am I ?

I am a human being Deprived of all the feelings , Emotions and Respect.

One of it's kind.

Anonymous Aquarian.

TRUTH !!

Truth can have a variety of meanings, such as the state of being in accord with a particular fact or reality, or being in accord with the body of real things, real events or actualities. It can also mean having fidelity to an original or to a standard or ideal. In a common archaic usage it also meant constancy or sincerity in action or character. The direct opposite of truth is "falsehood", which can correspondingly take logical, factual or ethical meanings.

However, language and words are essentially "tools" by which humans convey information to one another. As such, "truth" must have a beneficial use in order to be retained within language. Since truths are used in planning and prediction (such as scientific truths being used in engineering), the more reliable and trustworthy an idea is, the more useful and potent it becomes for planning and prediction. Those ideas which can be used anywhere and anytime with maximum reliability are generally considered the most powerful and potent truths. Defining this potency and applicability can be looked upon as "criteria", and the method used to recognize a "truth" is termed a criteria of truth. Since there is no single accepted criteria, they can all be considered "theories".